I read your letter, and I memorized it line by line. Reading it was a roller coaster ride of emotions for me. At the very end of the letter you told me to think about everything you wrote me... and I've been thinking, should I tell you the truth or lie to you as I have been doing all along?
Since the day we met I have loved you, and it keeps growing as each day passes. The very first time I saw your eyes, those eyes that mesmerize me, I knew you were special. But it took me a while to figure out what you meant for me, or what I felt for you at such an early stage of our friendship. But one day I figured it out, it was all crystal clear now. That day I understood why I couldn't stop thinking of you, a girl I had just met a while ago... I couldn't get you out of my mind! But when I finally knew what I felt for you, what you meant to me, I knew that I had to have you in my life and be with you forever. Usually I'm very upfront about things, but when it came to you, it was always so hard to express myself clearly, it was so frustrating...
I've seen you cry because of heartache and it has been the hardest thing I had to do in my life. Because I knew that if I told you the truth about my feelings and if you were okay with them, then I would have made you the happiest girl in the world. But I was so scared of loosing you, and that you wouldn't take well the huge news of your best friend being in love with you, that all I did was support you and tell you that you deserved better and that any guy would be lucky to have you. Stupid of me. You kept going for all the wrong guys and that frustrated me, because if you would have looked closely, you would have seen that the best guy for you was right in front of your eyes! But I couldn't say anything... I swallowed all my feelings and moved on.
You are in my dreams every night, and all I want is for all those dreams to come true. By reading your letter I instantly knew my dreams would come true, because you were feeling the same things as me. Who knew? This is beyond a dream, this is a reality now. I'm counting the days to see you again, because I absolutely hate missing you this much. And all because of you stubbornness, you couldn't just talk to me in person? You write me a letter like that and then just storm off? Well I can't wait to see you, and be with you for the rest of my life. I promise to make you the happiest woman in the world, love you every day even more and make you smile as long as I live.
Love you forever...
Jake
I love you...
What a great way to start this off. Right?
It's easier for me to write everything I'm feeling right now, which is confused. I have all this feelings for you bottled up for a very long time now, I'm about to explode. What can I do if I love you and you don't? It hurts too much just to think about it, I have to get away.... Away from you, and your impossible to resist charm.
With just one look I'm hooked, and that's just not fair. You know me better than anyone, the real me, that person that with just one look into my eyes, into the depth of my soul, you know exactly what I'm thinking. Mostly it's about you, but do you think of me the same way? I hate being like this, so lost and confused. I need to ask you something... if I told you I loved you, would you hate me? Am I going to loose you? Because if I am, I just can't handle it... I would just keep my feelings to myself and act as if nothing is happening in my heart.
You have always been there for me, as I have been there for you, and I have no idea what I would do if you were not by my side. I guess you want to know how and when I fell for you. Don't you remember? It was the first time I laid my eyes on you, I automatically knew you would be someone special. The first time you said hi to me, I knew deep in my heart we were meant to be together.
I can't express all the things I feel for you in just one letter. No paper would do it justice. But I'll save the rest for later. Just think about what I just wrote you, and write me back...
Much love,
Luna
"Friends, yet enemies.
A type of relationship whereby parties are silently resentful of and competitive with one another, but who behave superficially as though they are best friends.
The friendship develops because it suits their mutual interests, but parties involved would stab each other in the back in a heartbeat if it suited them.
Common in the relationally aggressive female world, particularly where competition for men is involved."
Frienemies... yeah you know they exist. And I hate them, even the word, it's so stupid. Why do we waste our time being "friends" with someone who would stab you in the back in a heartbeat? It's simple, we're scared. Scared of what people would say, scared of what that person would say about you, or scared of the many secrets people would find out about you for no good reason. Well... all of this has to stop! Take a stand and take those frienemies out of your life! All you have to do is put them in a little box in the back of your mind and pretend they don't even exist. Don't waste your time pretending when you can spend your time living, and not being disturbed by useless people. Maybe that frienemy used to be just a friend, and it's hard for you to let go, but please do. All the hate and pretending to like each other it's eating you alive.
People say that you should keep your friends close but your enemies closer, I think thay are so wrong. Keeping your enemies close would only make you paranoid. But if you keep your true friends closer it would only make you happy.
So why waste your time being paranoid if you could just be happy?
I don't know what to do. All of my favorite memories, are my memories with you. Every time I hear the word love, I think of you. You are in my dreams, in my thoughts, even when I breathe you are there.
I can still remember the first time I saw you, you looked so peaceful. You took my breath away. You were so beautiful. I fell for you so fast, I'm still trying to get a grip of myself. But how could I not have fallen for you when perfection was staring at me right in the face. I loved you then, and I love you now.
The moments I spent with you are still fresh in my memory. You were so funny and romantic, the perfect combination for a girl like me. You always kept me on my toes, and you knew how to sweep me off my feet. With a simple kiss you took me to the moon, and with a hug you filled my soul with love.
When the wind hits my face, I can still feel his scent sneaking up on me, to play with my mind. It's just not fair, why did I have to lose him? Life plays tricks on us, that are sometimes cruel.
Right now I'm just sitting here waiting on life to make it up to me. What can I do when I know life took him, my love, away from me for no good reason? Should I make peace with life? Or should just hate life? What can I do?
I didn't even get to say goodbye...
Last night...
It was so hard for me to know that one of my best friends is going through a rough time. I wish that I could talk to him, heart to heart and tell him what I really think about everything he's going through. I have so many things bottled up inside, and just because I don't have the courage to call him up, he will keep going the wrong road.
Last night I realized how much I care for him, and it frustrates me... don't know why. He's been such a good friend to me, that I have to do the same for him. It's only fair. Me and him, well, we have kind of a past, but that doesn't matter right now, because NOW he's one of my best friends. I don't know if that's weird but I don't really care. Maybe because of the past, this situation is weird, just maybe. But if you were in my position, what would you do? You would help your best friend, right?
All I have to say is that I understand what he's going though, because the same things happened to me. I just want him to know that there are so many thing in life that are important and valuable, to be wasting your time stuck in a past that made you cry. Move on, and live your life. Forget about all the things that made you unhappy, and concentrate of living your life to the fullest with the people that care about you, your friends. Surround yourself with positive energy and with people that just want what's best for you.
Remember I love you very much, and that all I want is for you to be happy!
I read your letter, and I memorized it line by line. Reading it was a roller coaster ride of emotions for me. At the very end of the letter you told me to think about everything you wrote me... and I've been thinking, should I tell you the truth or lie to you as I have been doing all along?
